This is my very own disease Wake up drenched in fear Pounding of my brain Might explode in time This cold chill makes me tremble Could this be my life or Is he just teasing me Cannot close my eyes Will the Reaper be waiting This my own disease Burn it at both ends What can I expect Twisted from the stress Validating these voices This my very own disease Be that as it may Take it for granted And abuse ourselves and still I am constantly fractured As I sit here fading Truth to fantasy Keeps the days replacing My denial for comfort This is my very own disease Caused by my neglect This breakdown comes full circle Lost in my regret Now don't be surprised when I tell myself I told you so Just give my fear a name Bent, cracked, numb, fucked, slave Dreams that leave a stain Can't escape such impressions This is my very own disease I told you so
